Dear Cancer

Why are you doing this to me?
Am I not living up to what I'm supposed to be?
Why am I seething with this animosity?
I think you owe me a great big apology!

i really don't know what you mean
seems like salvation comes only in my dreams

my head is filled with disease
my skin is begging you please
i'm on my hands and knees
i want so much to be free

That's from Terrible Lie by NIN, but I feel it accurately describes how I feel and why I feel it. I think cancer patients go through several different emotions, and right now anger is one of mine. I am pissed that this invaded my life and I am angry.